ANNOYED

Yes, I feel annoyed by everyone right now -.- And yes, I have a lot of problems right now. I hate my Family, i hate my life, I hate the air i breath and I hate this fucking bitch hot weather. I get annoyed easily. Everything that i ''hope'' for, ruined. Its like everything i do, doesn't seems to work. I am moody. I've been moody since past week. But its ok. Im used to it. Its sad right that you can say something like ''im used to it'' because the same shit always happened to you and you never fucking bother to change it. Honestly i am fine with it. I like being miserable. Maybe its because i like to cry. Yes, i cry all the time. Fuck it. Crying makes me feel good. After i cry i go online and hear some loud song and dance to it. But right now all i can say is my MOM AND WHOLE FAMILY is fucking annoying. Except my brother. I really really wanna go out. Not to enjoy but to go somewhere where no one yelled at me all the fucking time im home. Kutuk my way of speaking english. Or even bother to know weather i did my homework or not. I fucking study ok. I just don't want to show you like a fucking pretender. The only moment that im truly happy is at tuition. Im happy learning and laughing like a retarded. Seriously we laugh like there's no tomorrow. Its was loud and honest. There's my amazing teacher I've ever had, Cikgu fizam. Erin Izzati and Nabilah kamarzman and Ruzain. I love this people so much. Before we start our lesson we will bought something like food so we all can eat. I love the way we share our moment, we talked and laughed with each other. It was a pure honestly. So that was the only time i didn't felt any annoyance by people around me. I don't knw. I just feel annoyed by everything. Maybe it won't last. Maybe it will. Oh god. I just wanna go away for a while. Alone. I just need to think :'( Let me think peacefully. Please mama don't shout or judge me. Please friends don't ignore me. Please boy, don't hurt me :( Im just a girl. Sometimes people notice me, sometimes they don't. I don't care being invisible but i don't want to be invisible in front of someone that i care. See, its tired you know caring about someone who doesn't care about you. I should stop cuz this is waaaay too long and most of them is about my feelings. See how annoying is that. If someone ask me to read their blog full with emo shit and feelings, i would be annoyed. See, told cha i get annoyed easily :)