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At some point of your life, you feel like everyone is against you. You trying to cover the sadness with anger. You get pissed of by everything around you. You feel like there is no more people you can depend on and no where to go. So you end up keeping it inside and act like nothing happened. To tell you the truth, i get immediate by a lot of people. Its doesn't matter if you call me hot or cute or smart, i still feel like a loser. Its not like i don't appreciate the compliment. It just because i fail to make myself happy. The weird thing is i know i don't need them to be happy but if i can make myself happy, who will? I just stare at the computer screen and hope that the feeling would go away. I went offline pretend im not on the internet world and i open my tumblr (where i express everything about myself) My face expression will be the same. I can feel like my heart is getting scratch and it is painful. I went silent all night. Maybe if you were here, you can tell that im sad because i don't now where else can i hide this face. People are cruel. And i am one of them. But they made me like this. I hate to be that kind of bitch but turns out i am becoming like them. Well im a very bad faker. But i fake my sadness with anger. Its close enough. Its just like, for one moment, i just wanted to feel like im very important in someone's life. That i know the one who i care the most will never leave me like everybody else. And i can finally say ''so happy i could die''